It has been approximately 2 months since surgery, and I am doing very well. To the left, is an image of my current medications and the 'mediset' to which I fondly call, my dinner plate. Its a potent drug, with side effects ranging from the 'shakies' (tremors) to intense headaches, of both I have experienced, (and have not enjoyed). Though the shakies are somewhat amusing. I, who have scoffed at tremors in other clinical patients, am now a first class, shaky myself. In other news, unrelated to kidney disease, the weather in the Pacific Northwest has officially turned, soggy. The ground, the roof, the air, my driveway....all soggy. They should add another climate term right after 'rainy and cloudy'....and 'soggy' fits the bill. Daily life around here is back to some semblence of normalcy. Our family is functioning according to the amount of prednisone I have in my blood stream. I am tempted to put a Mommy Mood Gauge of some sorts on the wall, just as a precaution to my dear love ones. They need not anticipate a surprise visit from the Mother from....well...you know...if they can see it on the wall, they can prepare.
Cynism aside however, and I blame the negativity on medication, easy out, right? Really, it has been a fun experience rediscovering who I am, and how kidney disease has re-defined yet re-affirmed some things in my life. Faith in a real, tangible, loving God, faith in His Word and seeing it come alive in front of my very own eyes, the power of prayer.....these have been re-affirmed and refreshed in my life.
The redefinition comes in the form of actual, physical manifestations. I literally feel, brand spanking new. And thats not metaphor for my spiritual body, I'm talking about my flabby, 30 lbs over weight, over-eating, medicine junkie, physical body. There's no lingering weakness in my joints and muscles anymore. And certain, female attributes, of which I will not indulge in a public forum, are functioning again. I'm able to look at a life of opportunity without the constraints of physical weakness.
It's a great place to be, expecting wonderful things, being on the edge of welcoming something wonderful and not knowing what it will be. There are things that remain the same however, the God whom I serve, His Word, my family, the people who've supported us every step of the way. They remain the foundation. And I'm thankful that I can build upon something that won't sink, that won't crumble or fade away.
